More Than

I am more than a mini skirt, low cut shirts, and coloured g-strings
My sexiness and sensuality is deeper than the cloth i place on my back
These stereotypical visual aids are played out like an eight track
I can move mountains and create the unknown, but all you care about is what colours caress my crack
Redundancy is just another word for static dependency
A transition from material reliance to internal reality is something that men of this world can't seem to do
I am more than the soft supple shell that presents it self before you
I have a soul that transcends time and space
I have thoughts, feelings, emotions, intuition, and eyes that see beyond the flesh
But all you want to see is my body covered in mesh
I am more than a summer fling, and distant encounters
I am more than a needy girl seeking merely your attention
I am more than worthy of love beyond sex
I am more than worthy of maintaining the respect of others
I am worthy of more than what many can conceive, and I owe it to myself to get up and leave

I AM BACK

Okay.....so life can be pretty ridiculous and distractions arise at every corner.
Writing is probably the best way to purge some backed up junk in ones mind that often over flows in to the day to day functioning capacity.
So I shall return with intention of purging months of toxins that have been over flowing.

Parted Friends by James Montgomery

(note i did not write this. I found in amongst a collection of poetry. This poem is one of my favourites, because it says so much about many relationships we have on whatever levels they are. It makes you think!!! and thats important)

Friend after friend departs
who hath not lost a friend?
There is no union here of hearts
That finds not here an end
Were this frail world our only rest,
Living or dying, none were blest.

Beyond the flight of time,
Beyond this vale of death,
There surely is some blessed clime
Where life is not a breath
Nor life's affections transient fire
Whose sparks fly upward to expire

There is a world above
Where parting is unknown
A whole eternity of love
Formed for the good alone
And faith beholds the dying here
Translated to that happier sphere.

Thus star by star declines,
Till all are passed away
As morning high and higher shines
To pure and perfect day
Nor sink those stars in empty night
They hide themselves in heaven's own light.

Sax Man

Jazz Man won’t you play me a song?

Take me to the depths of B flat minor,

Away in the trees

Lead me to a valley,

Where your sound is like sweet honey bees

Where the earth and your song,

Can rupture age old wrongs

Jazz Man, Jazz Man, please play me a song

Take me on a ride, on your electric melodic slide

Where the fusion is so deep,

Hell can not sleep

Where the hills are so steep,

I’m forced to fly

Jazz Man, Jazz Man, please play me a song

Let your sax bend

And break all the trends

Away with the conformity

I just want you to rise up a storm in me

Unleashing the fires and longed for desires

Jazz Man, Jazz Man, please play me a song

Cause this worlds getting cold,

And I need your heat to string me along

Jaz Man, Jazz Man, Please play me your song

Ms. Lou

We’ve come from strong

And have forgotten what has gone

What has gone on before we sprouted

From our mothers womb

Ms. Lou

So beautiful and true

Many should and will pay respects to you

For you gave us a voice

And a ground to stand

Many of us today owe our fame to you

Our young are distressed

Speaking of words that utterly degrades women like you

A “ho” and a “bitch” is what they will say

Not knowing that you were the woman who paved the way

Your spirit was as old as mother Africa Herself

But your mind was of the future

Of the tomorrow that only God knows

So to you I shall thank when I stand before the world

Telling them I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for women like Ms. Lou

Distant Valentine

In dreams we shall meet

At the midnight hour

Before I close my eyes each night

And after I lay my head to rest

I see your smile and all is well in my world

My eyes fall shut

While my mind wonders in search of you

Transcending through realms rising form earth to heaven

From where you fell

There you are at the midnight hour

My angel from above

Wings spread wider than two turtle doves

I kiss your lips and feel your love

Miles away and hours apart

Will never keep your out of my heart

In dreams we shall meet

At the midnight hour

My valentine

My love

ONE

I am

Therefore He is

They are

We are

Divine creations

Traveling to various destinations

Eventually congregating

Resuming the form of one

One love

One dream

One theme

Many streams

One ocean

But only with purity and devotion will we ever reach

Unity

Peace within

Tranquility above

Appreciation for another

Loving every brother and sister

With a simple smile, and a daily embrace

We can conquer all trials

And demolish all tribulations and stipulations

Many will strike

Provoke you to fight

Castrate your thoughts

And swear you can be bought

If you choose to walk in the light

And remember what you were taught

Then One, we will become

And rise to the top

The Piano and Me

At the tender age of four

My heart raced for a young boy

Who sealed my cheek with its first kiss

And led me to a beautiful valley of sound

Day after day he would play simple songs, to please my ears

Not know the love he conjured up

Until one day he played a few notes

Up until this day those notes have been lost to me

For he created a sound much greater than thee

The sound resonated in my ear drum

Struck a chord in my heart

And opened up a window to my soul

For a moment my heart skipped two beats

A relationship that would forever grow old with me

A love that was destined to be

At the tender age of four

I met my love

The piano and me

my man.....

My man

Penetrates my

Deep down in my

Mm like no other makes my

And then I fall to pieces

He opens up my

Leaving me begging for more

For my man is in tune

With my every thought and desire

Mmm how I admire his

Late at night and when the early morning comes

I know there is no better lover than, the one I confide and let go inside my

My man

Penetrates my

Deep down in my

Grinding attentively

While getting me open like no other

Mmm like no other makes my

Damn my gates just open wide

While he enters me

He always respects my…

Sensitive side and understands that

Sometimes I may just close my eyes and cry

My man

Penetrates my

Deep down in my

With his head he…mmmm

Makes me want to

My man

Blows my

While he penetrates my

Deep down in my

Mmm M.I.N.D

While caressing my cerebral cortex

He doesn’t need latex

Because he respects, loves and penetrates my mind

Because my man knows

There is more to me than my P.U.S.S.Y

You see while other men were trying to lay between my legs

Singing and dancing as they beg

My man opened up his third eye and game me some head

Because he recognizes that a real woman’s worth isn’t found between her breast

Or when her hair is pressed

It’s deep in her mind

Hidden because that is her best

A.S.S.E.T

UNTIL WE ARE FREE!!!

Until we are free…

Our heads will forever be filled with Lye

The illusions of truth that burn our scalps

But the pain doesn’t make us stand up and listen

It’s the colonial condition

Illiterate rhymes, samples, re-recorded, regurgitated and never educating

The young as to where this music came

But until we are free…

Things will always BE..B.E.T

The same

Brothers professing, consumed by who got game

Women in tuned with hair do’s and fame

While our children are educated by societies diluted medium

That forever makes us walk blind with shame

But until we are free…

We will continue to drive…

Drive into concrete walls

With our escalades on 22”s

With our closets filled with thousands of shoes

While we blame every man, woman, child and Jew

The truth is we have the power to choose…

Choose the road that our children can walk on with pride

Where we can lift our heads up high

A road that we can truly say that we’ve tried

A road depicting success and freedom at no mans expense

But until we are free…

We will forever deny…

Deny ourselves of the Royalty we are

The knowledge, wisdom, and strength that resides inside

But if we never try to live…

Without…

The extensions of oppression

and begin to pay attention

Then until we are free…

We will forever be…

Pretentious, unconscious, mediocre slaves

Ruled by self indoctrinated oppression!

broken dreams

Broken dreams

Forgotten hopes

As I walk alone

The bricks crumble from beneath my feet

‘cause all I see is a tattered and torn street

Filled with another mans beat

As the Rasta fills the Man’s lungs with trees

They drive away mocking his accent with defeat

Brazilian Queen pours a wondrous song from her soul

As they watch her smoking another bowl

They all laugh and stare

Commenting on her hair

Some clenching their purses with fear

As they run back to their golden leers

Sadness devours my heart

Broken dreams

Forgotten hopes

As I walk alone

Contemplating, with a hesitant groan of a stranger behind me

I finally decided to take my tears home

But as I turned around to take one more look

Men of broken dreams

Woman of forgotten hope

Disappear right before my eyes

Straight into thin air

And there I was left to glare

Questioning were they ever really there

ten tears

My heart cries in the midnight hours

Mind wilts looking back at the lifeless flowers

And when these autumn leaves start to shower

I release a painful ocean

From my eyes unto the world

Beautiful beings

Sensual encounters

Still as I walk down crowded streets

Where the pavement and the concrete jungle are the only thing that beat

My eyes light up when familiar faces create an image of you

But my heart forever drops when you’re never there

And before it begun I knew it was over

But I cant help but wish we could start over

The old you and the true me

But deep down I know that this existence could not hold us….

Together again

So I write these last words of you in hopes that I can free

My mind, body, and soul of you

Some days your number is still at my finger tips

And moments of passion still reside on my lips

Never forgetting your grip on my hips

But reality states that you left five months short of a year

And here I am still shedding ten tears

1. for the love longed for from you
2. for the love that I truly believed was true
3. for my soul that you once set free
4. for the dreams that could never be
5. for the fear that love may defeat my very being
6. for the pain that I still retain
7. for every man waiting to love me, that I still compare to you
8. for my stupidity of denying my sight in hopes of bringing me nearer to you
9. for the woman that will set your soul free
10. for loving like a foul, loving a man, who doesn’t truly love you

could you be my love?

Could you be the man I longed to love?

Could you be the second turtle dove?

In quiet moments when I stare in to your eyes I find glimpses of me

From across the room I can hear your thoughts

You speak to me without words from your mouth

At times I truly wonder if you know what this is all about

You love a woman for who she is

Not the superficial pleasures she can bring

You love the short afro with tight curls

Sometimes you may think of lacing a women’s foot in pearls

But that’s because real Kings always treat their woman like a Queen

You can articulate the past

And refuse to be struck by Hollywood’s cast

You speak the truth

And from day I knew you were proof,

That real men exist

And manifest their thoughts on more than bliss

Could you be that man to bless my lips with an everlasting kiss

Show me that there is more to life than T. H. I. S…this

To walk down the street hand in hand

Observe the sunset with our feet engulfed in sand

Let me tell the world that you are my man

Could you be that man to help God you and I bring new life into this world

Love me until the sun goes down

Smile even when you’re mad, because only my kiss could remove your frown

Could you be that man to love me even if I gain a few pounds?

To let me love you and give you all I have to give

And never run from the oath we made to commit

Commit our lives to being true to one another

When I look at you I see the man God created for me

Could you be that man?

Will you be that man?

Cause I see that man

Come forth and take my hand

dancing in the dark

Dancing in the dark

Alone in an oblivious park

Stepping to the sound of the cool breeze

Swaying my hips along side the lonesome leaves

And as I close my eyes, inhale and breathe

I dare not remind myself that I stand alone amongst the trees

For the stars have put on a show for me

And I dare not give them the impression that I am not pleased

Stepping to the sound of the street

Snapping my fingers to my own beat

Entrenched in rhythm

Beats so deep they become as wondrous as a prism

The street lights light up the walk way

Encouraging me enticing me to lengthen my sway

Soon night will turn to day

And I’ll think to myself I may just have over done my stay

For the world awaits and many faces despise the way I play

So for now I will continue to dance in the dark

Until the world is ready to light up my park

unseen love

Born to breath

Born to please

Born to set souls free

But as I walk down this path

I can’t help but stop and see

That you were made for me

These words may only see this paper

And my feelings may only reach as far as the door

And when we meet again you may only stumble upon my smile

Without sight of the many miles you have already traveled along side me in my thoughts

In my mind we have traveled and conqured many seas

But in reality my love is simply a dying breed

And each day my words go un spoken

My heart grows impatient

Ripping my soul at the seams

Hoping that one day my heart will be caressed by thee

Sapphire man

Sapphire man
My loving black man
My entity of love
I need you
I love you
And respect you
Sapphire man
Sapphire love
Strong and deep as our roots that lay in Africa
Pushing his passion, through his artistic love
Creations inspired by only heaven above
As dark as the depths of the ocean
As light as the morning sun light
My Sapphire man
You are more than any afternoon delight
The love that flows through you unto the world
Your soul is precious
Encased in a rugged shell like as if you were a pearl
Beauty inside waiting to be released
Your masculinity is desirable, subtle yet nurturing
Your presence is warmth and never perverse
Your brown eyes, take me to the depths of the earth
Into the future exploring the possibility of new birth
Your intensity is inherent to me
Although Sapphires at times are found blue
You are the rear black sapphire that resembles the truth
My Sapphire man

Love you tender

My heart I surrender

Your feet shall never wonder

For every step we take together our hearts grow fonder

And many moons have come and gone

And years will come to pass

And here I’ll be, loving you

Until the last...

Until the last night the heavens shall cast

The word

The word is love and power

The word has strength of its own

Many people sought after

But few find the key

Many are beholders on the surface

But few ever look beneath

How could we say love and deny

The power behind each letter

The formation the presence that is created when each letter is together

Here he was

Now is lost

But soon to be reclaimed

By the Lords child who will bare his cross

natures hand

Butterfly, butter fly

Do you ever cry?

Do you ever stop and weep?

Tender sky, tender sky

Hints of pink, subtle greys with a heavenly blaze

Do you ever stop to gaze?

Evergreens, for all trees are forever green

Do you ever stop and sigh?

Do you ever gain a jealous eye?

At the birds that fly or the waters that flow?

Water blue, water green, crisp and clean

Do you ever wish you could just stop and dream?

Negate your flow and just stop and blow?

Drifting winds, drifting wind

Oh when you howl we know when the time comes you’re never a coward

But do you ever wish to stand in silence?

To brush a cheek without a peep?

For I doubt if they all could speak

Speak to you or I that is

They’d never dream of conquering or wearing another hand

Because they recognize their purpose in the great picture of this land

Our mothers land, her nurturing hand, her face that should never be smacked by man’s hand

So why do we continue to turn her cheeks purple and blue?

Think deep the answer is with in you

From a far

Across the room vibrations exchange

Pleasantries are clear genuine indications

Moments lost in manifestations

Wonder why? Who? When?

Could this be a passing phase?

Or is it an ever lasting gaze?

Step By Step

Step by step

I am cutting the fences down

Pulling at my garments leaving me with a tattered gown

Step by step

Slither by slither

They sneak upon my path with out making a sound

One more to the pile, may all enemies lay in a mound

A live to contrive amongst on another

Lord knows they stick close, befriending even a brother

Step by step

Lighting up my journey

For the spirit walks before man

Substandard plans one thought were written in quick sand

Unseen to thy eyes

Wishful thinking, brought forth are those who connive

Step by step

Sweeping up the skin that sheds

For those tiny morsels are used to get in your head

1 step, 2 step, 3 step dance

Fools eyes are never hidden

Not even in a glance

Gone Like The Wind

Gone like the winds

Disappeared into the thin

Brushed by my cheek

Wouldn’t even stick around to give me a peep

Gone like the garbage lost in a heep

Like you dropped your wedding band down the drain

Instantly your heart drops and you can’t refrain from feeling pain

Gone with your love

Flew away like two turtle doves

Keep your silence and just stay away

Can’t even handle seeing you, even if it was at a distance on a far off bay

Gone like the wind

Went out like a rattling tin

Out with a cold echoing noise

Couldn’t even do it to my face with some poise

Gone like the wind

Now ain’t that a sin

Gone like the wind

Along with many men

Herbie Hancock

The fusion I hear

When jazz is in the air

Not a damn word appears

Orgasmic to my ears

Men playing along their souls with out fear

Percussion, saxophones, piano oh lord I think that was a tear

Tearing of my skin trying to let this music in

This wondrous compilation

Ridding of all frustration

Believe it or not my spirit is trying to go into manifestation

True music moves mountains, and sets your soul free.

Is there that man?

Is there that man

Im not sure if I believe anymore

Not sure if the intuitive lover exists anymore

Not sure if consistency, reciprocity, real love. Does it exist? Mere contemplation makes me want to draw a fist.

Love making from the inside out

Deep thoughts transcending in silences

Someone who Id wear no robe of secrecy with

The only earthly being I could confide in

Romancing one another spiritually

Glances filled with rich lyrical symphonies

Could there be that man

To love me for me

In quiet moments when I look into his eyes Id see reflections of me

For we would be one in the same

Yet different bodies wed claim

Could there be that man

Ready to show me his love dance

Caress my body and thoughts while in his man stance

Penetrate deep down in my soul

While creating oceans that my panties could not hold

Could there be that man

Who knows unconditional love is a possibility, and chooses to exercise it with me

All trials and tribulations wed encounter were just meant to strengthen our bond

Because he knows the essence of dreams to fruition starts with, I can

Could there be that man

Who shows me his tears

Lets me in on his fears

Mentally strong yet emotionally tender

When he thinks of me his first thoughts arent how could I bend her?

Could there be that man

Who knows perms and extensions arent natural

Long hair fake nails dont matter

That they are all representations of lack of self love imposed by the oppressor

Whos willing to see the beauty in his woman if she chooses to throw away the press and curl

And maybe shave her head or grow some dreads or wear her natural curls

Could there be that man

That knows his and her bodies are temples encasing the soul

Stepping out of the relationship is not a manly goal

Its just contamination of the soul

Thats deteriorating the whole

Faithful and true because he knows it doesnt take a day to realize that the sun is shining

Yet realizes that true love isnt always knocking at his door

Its usually loves imposter Lust that is breaking down his door

Telling him he needs to score

Enticing him to bust and slam every woman to the floor

Could there be that man?

Do you see that man?

An ideal is not what I just explored

Its what separates real men from being societys common corner whores

Just want to be

So I plug into myself

Listen to my own tunes

Create my own rhythm

Dance to my own beat

Fighting to avoid the shame that comes with defeat

Preaching to me a mile a minute

How I should be, how I should live in it

From the time I open my eyes in the morning

To the moment I close them again at night

Im fed smokes screens and mirrors, fragile like glasses

Empty and drone like they want me to be like the masses

Ghetto superstar, or chocolate skin with pretentious blonde extensions

This is what they forget to mention

When they gather us all to participate

And become brainwashed in at their universal conventions

Fighting temptation and just trying to be

What do they call it

I think it was

T.V

(words on my back in poster)